Perspective

Its all in your perspective when it comes to dance or any physical sport. I'm learning that this year. I've been on varsity dance team for one year now and going into the second year I'm noticing a lot. I'm noticing a lot about how things are run, how to read my fellow dance members better, how to be a better leader, etc. Just from being on the team before gives me an insight to what I want for my team and what I think we're capable of.

Tryouts are today and there's lots of incoming eighth graders or incoming ninth graders, whatever you would like to call them, trying out. Also the members who were already on the team have to tryout again. I'm not too thrilled about this though. I understand that it's necessary, but I still don't want to go through the audition. Auditions make me nervous, I want to do my best and not mess up even if the chance of me getting back on the team is very, very high. It's just the process of trying out scares me. I know I don't have anything to worry about but it still isn't pleasant in my mind. I'm hoping everything will go okay, and I know it will, I guess I just like to worry.

With tryouts here, I guess its really hitting hard how soon the new season is coming up. And how fast the previous season went. I still can't wrap my mind around how we're not going to have our seniors next year that we do now. Let alone I can't comprehend that I'm going to be a senior next year. Being a senior/ captain, I'm going to have a lot more responsibilities and leadership roles. I'm unsure how I will be though, I'm excited and confident, but at the same time I'm nervous because I want to make sure I'm a good leader and good senior/captain.

The perspective change that has me during tryouts is that I'm not as nervous about it. Which may help or hinder me in some ways. I feel like I shouldn't worry, because I've been on the team before, which helps my anxiety levels. But I haven't practiced as much as I should and I'm hoping that doesn't hinder me as I tryout. But just being at the practices and learning the tryout dances I'm more aware of what's happening around me. I can see the little eighth graders and relate to them, because I was in their position not too long ago. I think the most I can do this tryout is make sure to help the other girls and make them feel welcome and not so nervous. This will help me get to know them better and show my leadership skills because some of them will be on the team next year.